Monday, October 27, 2008 . 6:59 PM
i dunno why i chose to wander here.im not feeling good. im feeling bad. things are haywire.
even after de session!
IM NOT THERE AS N WHEN U WAN ME TO!
i can be protective n try to understand u.. but u're taking it for granted.. i may be doin dat also.. but hello! im trying my best~ nobody sees this! u all could only say im oversensitive. but do u know wad i meant.
i joined in later than u all.. i dunno wad u all are thinking! if u dun tell me.. i wont know!
im not elastic.. i will snap. anytime...
even now.. u may say u had more stress than i do.. but honestly speaking. I HAD MORE! U ALL DUN UNDERSTAND! i dun like competitions. i dun like all these. i dun like to be in that position! if anybody wants it! take i away from me! i would love it. i dun like to alwaes dig info. i dun like ot be de last person to know everything. it makes me feel like im nobody. im not doing anything. im not impt. im not even there! IM LIKE A TRANSPARENT PERSON!
u all wont know how i feel. i dun like to tell u all my thots. wad u all know from me is juz partially. nobody has know wad im thinking exactly! u all only know de surface. dis shows sth.. i simply hasnt trust a single one of u.
yes.. u may be close to me.. u hav alot of privileges from me.. i can help u for all i can but hello! are u taking it for granted?? some of u may say dat "if u arent meant for this.. u're meant for better stuffs" wad if i tell u i DOWAN! u dunno wad im thinking. nobody knows. nobody deserves my trust at dis point of time.
i hate this. I DUN LIKE!
Labels: feelings